Hi! I am Lisa Dooley and this is my story…
Long Island girl, born & raised into a close-knit co-dependent family. For the first twenty something years of my life I lived with narcissistic abuse on a regular basis. I was brainwashed to believe the worst about myself. I was constantly told how I should act, who I should be, and what I should think. I was taught to believe that if I wasn’t a certain way, I deserved the repercussions that would come my way. I was taught that I was responsible for the way others reacted to me. I learned to become hyper-aware of the mood of people around me, shifting out of my natural state and into who I needed to be to keep them calm and maintain the peace.
Once I escaped that trauma loop, for the entirety of my twenties, I was faced with the realization of how deeply enmeshed and programmed my energy had become through subtle manipulation from the ones who were “supposed” to be protecting me. I discovered I had spent the first three decades of my life being who I was expected to be, rather than who I was. Even after “escaping” the things that were breaking me, I discovered I still felt completely broken.
I had lost love. I forgot what the feeling of being loved unconditionally felt like. So I searched. And searched. And searched. I was continuously looking outside of myself for the approval, validation, and love I couldn’t remember within. I felt defeated. Nothing I did ever seemed good enough. I was never able to be the perfect person for everybody, so I was never truly myself. I lost myself completely.
In search of the acceptance I didn’t know how to give myself I starved myself in attempt to shrink my body to fit the image of what others thought I should look like. I numbed myself (with food, drugs.& alcohol) to avoid the full spectrum of emotions I was experiencing because I didn’t want to inconvenience others with my feelings. I burnt myself out over-working jobs that looked good on paper, but felt like a slow death from the inside out. I did everything I could to make myself someone I was not.
I’ve tried to change myself so many times.
I spent three decades trying out method after method to
transform into who I should become.
In my twenties I began to dabble in the spiritual path. I studied healing arts and mysticism of many lineages. I immersed myself in spiritual teachings, slowly expanding my mindset and capacity for healing. I worked with so many incredible healers, mentors, teachers, guides and gurus. I received certifications as a Reiki Master Teacher, Advanced Practitioner of Integrated Energy Therapy, Oracle and Channel for the Divine, Ordained Priestess under the Order of Melchizedek, Soul Plan Reader, and Rose Priestess. I was seeking truth. I was seeking Source. The healing work I was hyper-fixated on began to create small and subtle shifts in my reality. I slowly began to expand my awareness to the patterns and programs that were at play in my reality. However, the big shift and transformation I was looking for continued to evade me. Even after I thought I healed a wound, it continued to show up again and again to be seen in different ways. I was still searching outside of myself from the love I still couldn’t find within. Still I didn’t feel good enough. I didn’t feel accepted or loved. I still felt lost, numb, and lonely. It wasn’t until I turned thirty that my life began to massively shift. This is when I began to shift my focus from the mental and spiritual realms, and into the physical. I found embodiment work and discovered how much of my Self was completely out of my body.
When I began to focus on my roots, the foundation of my life, and my physical vessel, everything changed. No longer was I able to commute two hours every day to work in an office in Queens. No longer could I live in the home I was living in. No longer could I stay on Long Island. No longer could I live the life I had built for who I thought I was supposed to be. Literally.. the life I had been living was suddenly no longer an option for me. I was catapulted out of New York. I had to leave everything behind. I let go of all that I was holding onto. I released who I was taught to become and decided to discover who I be.
I picked up and moved to South Florida without a plan. I devoted to the path in to my Self. I began to trust my life as the innate guidance system and truest expression of my internal state. I began to witness and resolve distortion in my reality through my being. I shifted my focus from solely external, to something internal. I devoted to discovering my Self, my Soul, my Source. When I devoted to my Self in this way, things began to shift instantly. Through my own internal healing, I effortlessly lost 50 physical pounds; surpassing a passive goal I had set for myself years before. Something I had spent a majority of my life searching for, a healthier body, came effortlessly to me when I stopped trying to change who I was and started letting myself express who I be.
I am the Lisa Dooley.
I am here to remind women of Earth who they truly are.
All is possible when you are aligned with your Self, your Soul, your Source.
As I released layer after layer of who I never was, I began to see and understand the woman I am here to be.
It took me thirty years to discover the medicine I was searching for. It is now my mission to help women discover their own truth through their bodies, in less time than it took me. It is my devotion to the power of all that is, to help the women on Earth re-discover the truth of their divine feminine essence. It is my passion to remind the women of Earth exactly how much is actually possible for them. It is my joy to share the limitless expansion of BEING ONE’S SELF and the profound transformation it creates.